Just One Of Those Days

Do you ever have one of those days where whatever you touch turns to shit or where everyone and everything just annoys the fuck out of you for seemingly no reason whatsoever? Well yesterday was one of those days. I don't think stopping smoking helped at all to be honest because there were about 25 different people yesterday I could quite easily have covered in grease and set alight, even the actual bus I got on to come home from work pissed me off because the fucker vibrated like a turbo charged Rampant Rabbit on steroids! I swear my fillings nearly came out from all the shaking!

By the time I got home I was dying for a smoke but was a good boy and decided not to give in to temptation after putting myself through a day of hell, why make it worse tomorrow eh? I had planned to jump straight onto a couple of 4/180 games but forgot that I had agreed to drop the pub DJ's hard drive off for him in Wakefield so I had to drive there, in rush hour traffic, which tested my will power because I always smoked in the car, especially in traffic! Anyways, I got back home, had a pint of lager, a shite and logged onto Stars to register for some of the 4/180's and win myself some dough! The problem is with poker, is that in general you actually have to play well in order to win. I wish someone would have reminded me of that fact because I played like shite!

I registered for two games and noticed that the shark known as Kenn had logged onto MSN so I had a wee chat with him and it turned out he was in the same 2 games as me, could it be a Raise The River first and second finish? Nah! I think Kenn busted pretty early in one and I didn't fair too well busting in 118th after I called a min raise with KcQc and ended up getting it all in on the turn on a king high board and couldn't suck out against a slow played AK. I fired another up and never got above my starting stack at any stage and busted around 50th. Meanwhile I was doing pretty good in one of the games I fired up at the beginning of my session.

I'd been playing pretty tight but seemed to be picking up hands at the right time and I was sitting with an above average stack at the first break and feeling very comfortable. Not long after play resumed I made a horrible play with 99 and managed to get Stars to save me on the river. I raised 1st in on the CO and the BB called. Flop was something like 864 with 2 clubs. Turn was 5c I think and somehow the money went in and villain shows 64. River is an 8 and I get a decent stack for my donkey play! Amatay wasn't impressed on MSN. I then took the chip lead after some donk loved his JJ enough to 4 bet me AIPF and my Rockets held but then I went card dead and mistimed a couple of steals and at the 2nd break I was sat 6/23 but still in very good shape. Then this hand, sponsored by KJ Jelly, fucked me dry from behind! I'd been in a couple of pots since the restart and was delighted to see AA! I made my standard raise and a fellow big stack raised enough to put me all-in. Obviously everyone folded and I called with my rockets and he shows JJ and I'm an 80/20 for a big chip lead with only 21 players remaining so another final table beckons. Well it did until the cunt caught running cards and rivered a fucking straight. Flop 738. Turn T. River a fucking Neuf. Jesus Christ! I can't fault his play nor can I moan really because if I hadn't have sucked out early doors I wouldn't have been this deep but to go out to running cards is awful. I fired another game up when I went to bed but I was more tired than I thought and ended up turning my laptop off after the first break because I was falling asleep so I'm not sure where I finished in that one but there were only 70 or so left in that particular game when I went to sleep!

So my ROI has dropped to around 35% from 33 games which is shit but also a meaningless sample size. I'm determined to get this to at least 100% because I feel very comfortable playing them, I just need to log some volume. Full Tilt are still dragging their feet with regards to my withdrawal and have now taken to ignoring my emails too the twats. I'm pissed off about this because a mate transferred me $50 so I could play over last weekend and I promised him it back in "a couple of days" but the wankers still haven't transferred me anything to Neteller so I only have 7 buy-ins on Stars at the minute so hopefully I'll be able to go deep tonight and replenish my roll again and repay my mate! I should be on there about half six to seven should anybody wish to join a couple and give each other some railage.

I was meant to be going to see a flat tonight after work but they've phoned me to tell me that the guy who was going to show me around is poorly so I need to make another appointment. Problem is they don't do weekends and they close at five so how the fuck I'm meant to sort somewhere is beyond me! I'm a bit stressed about this because I've worked out I'm going to have about £550 left this month once my bills come out which is nowhere near enough to hire a van, pay a bond and a month's rent and bills so I'm a bit fucked really. Looks like I better get asking people to borrow their sofa for a couple of weeks and save some wonga up! Why do I always blow my money on shite and leave things until the last minute every single time? Cos you're a cunt Pud, sort it out!

Still no fags smoked although today feels worse than yesterday, I actually feel anxious which is fucking shit I can tell you. It should all calm down again by the end of the week, just in time for the weekend! Great! Thanks for reading and best of luck at the tables!